last night was a blast apart from 'that moment'. hey frens, i'm sorry if i messed ur x'mas.. i didn't see it coming at all. but anyway really enjoyed myself with u guys. its so nice to be crazy & kranky again! too bad cant stay til late w u guys.. its was one helluva good time! after so long that we went out together and its always half of the gluts. one more occasion to look forward to. CHALET! this time i'm staying for 2 nights. yeah!
dear frens, thank u thank u for being there emotionally with me last night. i really needed it. thank u.. i'm such an ass.
i don't understand why u always sound like that. i know ur tired but do u have to do tt everytime? it hurts. i don't wanna bring up anything again, cuz its always me who doesn't understand. i give u ur own space. i don't feel appreciated. u always turn the tables round. don't blame me if anything goes wrong.
i have a ton of things on my mind i don't know where to start..
is it just me or is this really happening? this is not the first time i felt this way. could it be because of me? i am dreading this & the future. no matter how much u try to convince me i still can't buy that tho i may say 'yes'.. cuz i don't wanna see u do foolish things. no matter how much we try to sort things out it always end up the same. what now? how now? do u feel the same? no it's not bcos of external factors. true enough it takes 2 hands to clap but resistance will lead to rebel. many times.. too many times that i have to bring this up. its so typical.
no. i don't wanna do this.
posted @ 1:54 AM
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Sunday, December 19, 2004
i am still thinking about it and i cant stop. i am very confused. shit! this is not good at all. never knew that what you said will somehow eventually come true. that is to a certain extent. but i'm not gonna let it overule me. i'm standing firm on my grounds.
its so easy to succumb to temptations.
sigh.
finally i managed to print the pic of me & taufik & tt costs me $4.80. WTH! but its alright all in the good name of TAUFIK. god! didn't expect myself to be crazy over him man.. yeah it seems so surreal that i managed to get up close with him.
I LOVE TAUFIK!!! ever since i met him in person, i totally in love with taufik!! he's so nice, humble, sweet.. and so CUTE!! what a lovable guy... awwww....
hey poop that piece of advice worked wonders like u said. haha.. but the initial sight was 'that kinda smile'. ironically i kinda feel good. is this gd or bad?
vert: he just happened to be there... haha.. i think he's a frequent at Thumper. go look for him there!!!
why are u such a pain in the ass now?? it might leave me with no choice one day.. and trust me i don't wanna go to that extent.
just came back from x'mas party at Thumper. good place. at least the food is so much better than the one at the d&d. i was almost losing myself. thot of u baby.. if only u were there. u got so mad when i took a pic with taufik. no baby i did not flirt with him.why woud i? juz a pic. does tt hurt?
shit. fuck it.
posted @ 1:39 AM
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
i am pms-ing & i dont think i have much to say..
except that i find my self bimbotic now.
or rather i have been, maybe i never realised it.
vert: i'll check out fot u what the hours r like for part timers yah.. but i think most of them work 4 days a week. sumtin like tt.. not too sure tho.
darn.. what's keeping the starhub line.. oh yay! somebody answered my call. not bad a service... but the csr was speaking too fastly n i almost couldnt remember what she said. which makes me wonder.. am i like tt too when i speak to my customers? and i activated my mms.. haha so exciting!!
its really getting so so busy at work. there's not even a sec to breathe. tt shows how shorthanded we are. and the managers scrutinize every single move we make. like how they really monitor our lunch hour. sigh. and we have to go alone for lunch. no more pairing up. sigh again. sigh sigh sigh. its like i'm kinda adapting to the work environment & getting comfortable but at the same time i'm really sick of the job or rather...... the *beep* urgh!
* to those ppl reading my blog if u need a job desperately & don't mind working a fast paced, busy, STRESSED condition feel feel to let me know cuz i can recommend you at my workplace. the pay is good u noe.... *
x'mas is coming & there's a office x'mas party!!! yay!! party time again! this is so fun! and its free too! hsbc is cool man!
thank god! thank u! i am a hundred dollars richer today. if not for the referral i made for a home loan, i will be so damn broke! thank u thank u!
hot sunday aftie in the office again. i feel like i got no life.
there was this fucked up customer who really pissed me off last night. what luck! and that was my last call. who does he thinks he is?? so what if he is a fucking doctor?! blah!!
i'm seeing purple all over my monitor. what's happening to the world..???? its rather an eyesore but i have so many things to say..
have i actually blogged anything on last sunday??? hmm short term memory loss or rather my usual blur-ness. well anyway sunday was not as what i expected it to be. i thot my parents invited more ppl.. even my colleagues cant make it last minute so there was so much food leftover. oh btw thnx so much for coming dear gluts & thanks for d chocs & strawberries.. mmm what a good combi. woooopss and so sorry friends didnt actually tell u before hand that its not the usual hang out at prawn's house.. hehe.. geez. anyway we stil had our bridging session after i-cant-remember-when-was-d-last-time-we played-bridge together. of cuz we still had our privacy in my room. to grace & celeste wish u guys were there!! miss ya! and vert, as she literally text in the sms, miss the brownies & food rather than US. hurmph! and vert u still owe me my baju.. it's my mom's sentimental value ya.. so puhleeeeeese i need it back by hook or by crook.
just a few days ago, i spurlge some of my pay on a new handphone. but no regrets. cuz i really need a change man. finally not clinging on to the 'pok' phone. really love that phone.. initially i was thinking if i should get the Nokia 7260 but considering the functions of Nokia 7610, i actually paid extra 30 bucks for d better phone. still its worth the money tho. i love my new phone!!!
i hate how after the end of a whole working day, which is equivalent to 8 hours of non-stop answering of calls, it must end with a debrief session. i'd rather not have it cuz it demoralises me to work even harder. in fact it'll make me wander why was i so inefficient. that is bad..... day by day & one by one ppl are leaving the call centre. everyone seems to be resigning. main reason: not happy w management. sigh. i may not have experienced or seen anything myself but from the look of the high turnover rate... what more can i say.
yes!! my screen is back to normal... oh nooooooooo its getting worse!!!!! noooooooooooo i still need to blog........ argh!
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